GhostPrincess

Fingers in my throat, I hate doing this. pressure, I need to be the best! Then no one will notice frustration, why is this so hard? afraid, It's blood in it now! Wasn't it enough to stop eating? Some say I just want to get noticed, attention. I say they're stupid. Who would chose a life of complete and utterly pain? It's not worth it. And the voices in my head just won't stop shouting.

I never knew how much you could love and hate someone at the same time. You hurt me over and over again, still I stay. I’m like a dog that way, loyal. But what will happen the day I break? ’Cause thats were I’m going if this continues. No one sees, my dirty little secret is well hidden. Is that how it’s supposed to be? I should’ve stopped dreaming when I stopped eating..

Sometimes she creeps up to me at night, wispering; What if you could look like her? She gives me hope, or her? but at the same time she scares me. I tried to get away once, it didn’t work. She’s with me 24/7. I’ve lost many friends because of her. They just don’t understand, I’m your only true friend. I’m small, needy and afraid. Help me, I don’t know how much more I can take. I follow her every move, and I can’t stop. It's interesting how life turns out, what started as a facination turned into a disease. Go away Ana, but please stay.